love

could it be true that

you fall in love with someone who possesses attributes you desire and lack
which makes this special someone different
the different views different expectations
become obstacles in a relationship
and you decide its best if you let go and set him free from a possible burden

yet again, true love is possibly when you triumph these obstacles together and see eye to eye
how much should one give before letting go
can anyone be entirely unselfish

friends say never let yourself get hurt in a relationship
protect yourself and never commit fully
because guys move on so much quickly than girls do however strong the girl is
but what if i hurt you?

i promised i tried
but behind those smiles
are tears i swallow back in
are the shivering ends of my lips struggling to stay up to maintain that smile

but somehow at the end of evrything
i know i love you
and somehow thats all thats in my head
no matter how tough it is

i can do it. i tell myself i will.

**

i duno who to talk to sometimes
i feel so insecure
rejections
financing my uni education overseas
do they want me? what do they think of me? when are they going to call me? who has gotten it?
endless questions
i try to believe
wishing upon stars and everything i can wish upon
i try to have faith
i duno who to turn to
im so sick of crying at night
because i duno who to turn to.
i miss school
i miss my friends
i feel so tired
i just wanna run away from evrything

**

invigilation

haha me reliefing in rgs now.. its a really pleasant experience, so many ex rgs pple are here so its pretty fun.

and now i finally know what goes on behind the scenes before and after examinations.. and its pretty entertaining how some of the responses given by students for their midyears are so funny ha. and it feels kinda weird to only use red ink now (:

anyway b is finally back! (: after a long 8 days.

AND I CANT BELIEVE IM SO BEHIND FOR GOSSIP GIRL as in TWO NEW EPISODES HAVE BEEN OUT since that long hiatus!!!!! screams. rushing home from sch now to watch it. so squealable (:

me backs!

me is back!

haha.

after a whole series of scholarship interviews, im still without one.. ):
waiting and waiting and waiting

anyway psc just sent me a rejection letter, not even offering me an interview. sigh.

oh to happier things,

(:

you know i'm head over heels over you
baby just trust me
just for this once

been reading jodi picoult's nineteen minutes.. really good.. im pretty sad that i have a mere 100 pages left before i finish the book.. where's melia! lend me your library of jodi picoults! (:

hoho i wonder who still comes by this url. anyhoo, TA.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIOK! belated actl. by one day. DINNER SOON PLS!

((:

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painful history
just another repeat of it
maybe not just
not that simple

ive got this nonchalant feeling abt it though
like, HAHA i alrdy know how it feels so hit me
but yeah
i feel like a fool

its me
just not cut out to be
haha
im so sick of those pangs
pangs that ran away from
and now back to

fuck