im screwed

ive been slacking
i study
but nowhere near intensive
i pray i will survive prelims really

anyway

i love sioks.



and justina



and my mac loves

*

ambivalence
duality
doubt
baby where are you
just where are you

stress

im really quite screwed for prelims lah everyones so hardcore now ><
im trying to be hardcore too!

why is it that every afternn after lunch im plagued with a tummyache till dinner time which sucks cause im trying my best to study but it just affects my concentration.

anyway, i was reading the newpaper and there was this girl who fell on a bamboo pole and the pole actually pierced through her chest area like THROUGH the body. gosh but she looked pretty okay in the picture when the medics attended to her. haha but the pole missed her heart by like a few cm. so thank God and praise the Lord. she looked too little to die because of a bamboo pole. boo. this is so severely random.

was looking through my mac and see what ive got..
pictures from tuition!

this is what we do during tuition:



tada!



xueling cynthia lisa (:



me hearts luohan lisa <3

tuition on sat and sun again! somehow i enjoy tuition. (: lisataraxuecynthiaweiquan!

anyway,
thank you for all that sweetness. i really appreciate it, especially in such horrible times.
if you actually read this.

bedtime all.
zhaijians.

and all i need is for time to turn back around to the happiest days of my life:



you gave me the best i could ever have.
shihui.anna.amanda.chuwen.(amelia).

cacophony

theres just too much noise in my head
being bothered by too many things at a go.
sigh.

whats becoming of me?

anyway,
didnt go to school today.
tried to study..
read some gp today my gp is really rotten havent touched it since jan1 07.

anyway i had a really sweet dream last night
which is one of the many reasons why i didnt wanna climb outta bed this morning
if only fantasies like that actually do happen
another reason to sigh. yet again. haha.

its 22:12. boo.
hahah. missing somebody.
so quiet now.

okay my life sucks. BYE.
taralaa.

when friends can be all that you need

tidal wave of emotions

you brought me on a rollercoaster ride
i was so angry at myself

anyway

the whole uni thing is stressing me out, enough to cause the biggest pimple outbreak ive had in the whole of my jc life. serious. its embarrassing, i hate my complexion now.

maybe its the sun i used to love the sun so much but now i feel like the suns killing me whenever im in the sun. IHC netball was like soooooooooooooooo scorching hot i almost died. carmen said "shihui you just look like the suns killing you on court" hahaha. laughs. i probably was v irritated with the heat. sigh but yeah bw won. yay.

national day celeb was better than i expected, in a sense that i managed to have a great catching up (though stressful) session with resh and chupoks. hahha. all that talk about universities and the upcoming oxbridge applications. i feel so mediocre really.

so yeah a long break from school. hopefully my pimples go away. haha.

AND THE NEXT FEW DAYS WILL BE THE HAPPIEST DAYS OF MY LIFE UNTIL SAT MIDNIGHT COMES. boo. for 2 and a half weeks ill have to live without ><

STILL
i hate rollercoaster rides
why you

i knew it

kcuf you.

maybe its my fault i shouldve known
but still,
i hate you.

doubt

i want to lead my heart
and not follow it for once

but maybe its all too tiring

why

thanks for talking, r.

F ighting against memories
E tched on the banks of my soul
A s i try to charge through the barriers
R ecurring inner voices stop me in my track.

the fear of failure
the fear of disappointment

i must get myself outta this.
God, can you hear me?

the rose

some say love is a hunger
an endless aching need
some say its a dream afraid of waking
the heart afraid of breaking

a razor that leaves your soul to bleed?

its time

VR
B
A
A
D

TIME TO BUCK UP AND WAKE UP SHIHUI.

BAAAAAAD.

growl.

anyway. it was a great day today.
lunch with lisa xue siok tara haiti was so funny lisa youre really a chao ah lian.
"very HAO CHI leh"
HAHHAHA. (:

grin.
it has been a happy day.